Who am I?????

If I will make a survey to my classmates regarding on their impressions about me, for sure majority will say that I am the kind of girl who drowns herself in her studies, less time for leisure and the serious type of person. Others say I'm introvert. Well, there totally wrong! I have a lot of friends and we even have a clique.

What you don't know about me is my insanity. Yes, my insanity. You won't believe me but, it's really true. Well, I don't blame you for not believing because actually you won't see me acting crazy in the classroom and if you ask me to do so, I will only refuse.

Insanity strikes me during my private time. I neither get my book in Biology and study nor read a novel. I simply face the mirror, stare for few seconds and then go crazy. I either sing in a high pitch tone that for sure will crush your ears into pieces like a molecule or act any kind of role. Vain and stupid it appears, yet its the amusing truth about me that defines my big difference from others. So, what's your opinion? Is this really a fact or a fiction?

Reconciliation

O, brethren
I am with penury of heart;
beguiled by power,
enslaved by materialism,
twined with selfishness and vengeance.
Fraught of ecstacy and pride.

My soul is ponderous.
A decade to uproot the weeds,
to awake from somnolence,
to incinerate the wickedness.

With your saber,
burn down the palisade.
Oust thy apathy.
Defy the lure of sapphire.

Cure thy abyss of shame,
Resile the goodness.

You're the Result of Yourself

Don't blame anyone,
never complain of anyone or anything,
because basically you have made
of your life what you wanted.

Accept the difficulties of edifying yourself
and the worth of starting
to correct your character.
The triumph of the true man
arises from the ashes of his mistakes.

Never complain of your loneliness
or your luck.
Face it with courage and accept it.

Somehow,
they are the result of your acts and
it shows that you always win.

Don't feel frustrated of your own failures, neither unload them to
someone else.
Accept yourself now or you'll go on justifying yourself like a child.

Remember that any time is good to start
And that no time is so good to waste.

Don't forget that the cause of your present is your past,
As the cause of your future
will be your present.

Learn from the brave, from the strong,
From who doesn't accept situations
From who will live in spite of everything.

Think less of your problems
and more of your work.
Learn to arise from your pain,
and to be greater than the greatest
of your obstacles.

Look at the mirror of yourself
and you 'll be free and strong
And you'll stop being a puppet
of your circumstances.
For you yourself are your destiny.

Wake up and stare at the sun in the mornings
and breathe the sun of dawn.
You're part of the strength of your life now.

Rise up, fight, walk,
be sure and you'll win in life.
Don't confuse yourself with fate
for fate is the excuse of failures.

Lessons in Life

As I walk through life I've learned....

That you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

That you should always leave loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you see them.

That it's taking me a long time to
become the person I want to be.

That you can keep going long after you can't.

That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

That regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship
is at first; the passion fades and there had better be
something else to take its place.

That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it
needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

That my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time.

That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but
That doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're
down will be the ones to help you get back.

That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
It goes for one true love.

That just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences
you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do
with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

That your family won't always be there for you.
It may seem funny, but people you aren't related to
can take care of you and love you and teach you to
trust people again.
Families aren't biological.

That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you
every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others,
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't
love each other. And just because they don't argue , it doesn't mean
they do.

That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret, it could change your life forever.

That two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally
different.

That your life can be changed in a matter of minutes, by people
who don't even know you.

That even when you think you have no more to give, when a firend
cries out to you, you will find strength to help.

That credentials on the wall do not
make you a decent human being.

That the people you care about most
in life are taken from you soon.

"PORTRAIT OF A FRIEND"

I can't give solutions to all life's problems doubts and fears
But, I can listen to you and together we can seek answers.

I can't change your past with all its heartache and pain,
nor the future with all its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet i can share in your laughter and joy.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make ,not to judge;
I can only support you,encourage you, and help you when you ask.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change , room to grow, room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you really are
I can only love you and be your friend.

Secret of Youth

There are people who are full of serenity that they seem to live in an eternal springtime. Nothing annoys or troubles them; they are always calm, agreeable, patient and self-controlled.

Are these the people whom we call happy? Yes, and intelligent too: intelligent not because of talent or ability, but because they have acquired the precise slant on life.

They are the people who fight because life itself is a continuous battle and they carry their crosses without complaining because such is the will of God. They are the people who undertake great obligations, for the fulfillment of one's duty is the only preservative against the unrealities of imagination. And in carrying out their duty, they forget themselves in order to think only of others: they themselves have little need of anything because their life is uncomplicated. They forget their own immense worries in order to relieve the small troubles of others and they make light of their own serious sicknesses so as to nurse the mild indisposition of another.

And in doing so, they are surrounded by gratitude and affection. Thus they feel a sense of satisfaction that relieves the burdens of life. These are the people who never grow old: not even when their hair turns white. This the secret of youth!

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Renewal of Heart

The keys are with me. I can stay in the dome of being just a kid forever. All the doors are locked and the windows closed; preventing myself from the exodus of a care-free life. Never will I put myself in the inception of hell. I'll never go out, never grow and never change. I belong in this zone until the last breath of my engine.

I am so secured that no one can trespass or break in my territory. Yet, I was such a fool. One clever man brought the onslaught of waves that destroyed the facade. He put up the fire in the furnace and reduced into ashes the whole infrastructure. I was able to get out and weave my way to escape. But, a bright light blurred my way. It was him following my tracks. He came near me and said," Look at yourself in this mirror." I felt the cold breeze of his breath the shattered my empty heart into pieces. I saw a vain reflection of myself.

He left. I paused and remained speechless for few minutes. Then, I knelt down. Blobs of tears flowed. So many realizations pierced me.

I imprisoned myself in the dome of apathy. I don't want to go out from my comfort zone. Yet, God bestowed freedom upon me. My soul was relieved and renewed. I am a whole new and fee person; a cause for a celebration.